Enduring abuse as a child stops us from maturing into who we were meant to be. Satan is able to deform our personalities and trap us with demon spirits. We need to understand there is a spiritual world, one that consists of God’s spirit and one that consists of demon spirits who are fallen angels. Because Satan wants to destroy anything that is good and is of God, he will go to any lengths to keep people in bondage.
Some of the “personalities” that Satan infects us with, are the spirits of rejection, rebellion, hate, bitterness, jealousy, low self-esteem, insecurity, unforgiveness, suicide, guilt, condemnation, abandonment and many, many others. And he has no compunction about destroying children. They are most vulnerable to his attacks, unless they have praying parents or someone in their life who intercedes for them.
However, children who have been abused, especially by their parents or the ones who were supposed to protect them, usually can end up not ever knowing their true personality. For instance, rejection comes when a child is not wanted, abused, abandoned and neglected. Even if the parents wanted a boy and got a girl. They may still love the girl, but it allows Satan to come in, and as the girl grows up, she starts feeling insecure or has low self-esteem, no matter how much the parents show her love.
Once Satan can make us feel rejected of love, he will then bring in rebellion to fight for the love we feel rejected of. These two demonic spirits fight within us to take “control” of our personality. Over time, they can also bring in many of the other spirits that will make it even harder to overcome.
A spirit of rejection includes spirits of the fear of being rejected and self-rejection. That means not being able to accept oneself. Our self-image usually is installed in us as a child. My parents molested me and passed me around to be used by others. As a result I’ve had to go through many years of healing. I haven’t been able to accept myself. I didn’t like who they (those who abused me) made me to be. I was just an object to them for their use. They did not care about me or treat me as a human being. Therefore, my personality was not allowed to mature but instead was distorted and controlled by demonic spirits. Spirits of rejection, self-loathing, hate, bitterness, jealousy and many other spirits then made up my personality.
The Bible tells us God made us in his image (Genesis 1: 27 So God created man in his own image). That means we have the same characteristics as him. Unfortunately, since the fall of man, we have taken on many of the same characteristics of the enemy. The good news is we can allow God to work in us and become who he meant for us to be. But how do we learn to trust a God who allowed such horrible things to happen to us?
For me, it took me many years to learn to trust God. But I had learned there was nobody else that was going to rescue or help me. Jesus was my only hope. So, over time, I held on to God and He has taken me through many processes to help me learn to trust Him and to allow Him to teach me the truth. He taught me the lies Satan had fed me, the ones he told me about myself and the ones he told me about God. As I learned to disagree with Satan’s lies, I had to replace them with what God’s Word told me. His Word does tell us who we are as His children.
We have to reject anything that is not of God. Believing the lies of Satan gives us an unbalanced, false view of who we really are. The devil wants us to believe everything is the fault of everybody else and that we are not responsible. He wants us to believe we can’t change anything and there is no hope. Because of the abuse I was not able to give or receive love. What my abusers taught me was not love; it was Satan’s twisted imitation of God’s love.
Satan doesn’t want us to have God’s love. God loves us even when we do things wrong. He doesn’t love our sins but he continually and unconditionally loves us. Satan wants us to focus on our weaknesses and flaws. God made us in his image and to find out what that means we have to study his Word and get in agreement with who and what the Bible tells us we are.
God made us, He formed us and knew us before time began. He knew each flaw and weakness. When we accept God and his love and what he has for us, we become who he meant for us to be. This is an ongoing process that begins the day we allow him into our life until the day he takes us out of this life.
After many years of healing, I am no longer a victim. This Scripture makes me to know the past is over. I can’t change it, but I am healed from it and there is hope in Christ for a better life and that He loves me.
Song of Solomon; 2:11-13; 11 For, lo, the winter is past, the rain is over and gone; 12. The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of birds is come, and the voice of the turtle is heard in our land; 13. The fig tree putteth forth her green figs, and the vines with the tender grape give a good smell. Arise, my love, my fair one, and come away.
Knowing and Accepting Myself
